before you conclude...

i lay my head on the table as i listen to coin speak to me and tell me about his adventurous lifestyle *i really do not need to explain to you who coin is, cause you can tell by the name that he is two sided*. coin asked for my opinion and i answered; coin smiled and said "i'm happy you could help, you really listen and speak less"

now, it's not the two "sidedness" of coin that made me realize the definition of being hurt or misunderstood. the thing is coin could figure the kind of person i was and did not take it to heart when i hardly responded to his tales.

i then understood hurt when i realized that i had pushed a good person away because i concluded on the first thing i knew about the person; at that point i role played myself as coin and tried to imagine how i would have faired, trust me, it wasn't a pretty site.

i also realized i had been the victim since because coin really didn't have to worry about a thing; i was the one bothering myself. coin was just being himself and i was wondering why coin had to be coin and neglecting my life *the irony eyy?*

between the world and myself.

One body placed in the center for the world to come by; every individual with their own opinions and expectations. Not a canvas but seems to them that it is, like the work if an artiste, 

Several views and messages; they see my life as a painting.

 Yet they don't reflect on the picture, they only criticize.        

                                    O ye man, when will thou place thyself before thee and compare thy actions to those ye criticize; thy life is filled with more scornful and treacherous behavior. 

Thy has to appreciate thine self for criticism to end.

For me, you say to people what you know and what you can see concerning yourself, therefore; a man that speaks ill of a man is ill.

Lost2

The words I don’t say.

The tears I don’t shed.

They hold millions of words.

Each tear drop encloses pain.

How can the same water we drink to quench our thirst be the one we release when we are in pain?

How can the same chocolate we take it to calm our nerves be the same one that causes diabetes?

The same fire we use in cooking burns down people’s houses.

I’m just trying to say simply that most of the people we bring so close to us are the ones that wear and tear us.

I wonder where we are leading ourselves to.

We all seem very confused. 

Lost.

 Everything I ignored, they came back to me; not as they were to be, but they came as a slap on my face. I stared blankly thinking of how to fix it all up. I got an idea and braced myself; I decided within not to let pride come in the way and walk up to my fears and then I did. I approached it and guess what happened? My fears looked at me and I’m sure if it had hands it would slap me and call me selfish and stupid. What was I supposed to do?

Well I thought to myself again and I decided to ignore my fears and drop the ego. Can I have a second shot?  At least in baseball you have 3shots, and in life you keep trying till you are fed up. I don’t know about basketball but I know you can shoot at different ranges. So this is a second shot and I hope it’s a 3pointer.